12 April 2012 § Leave a comment
“D” is for Distractions of which I have many. I had wanted to do the whole blog “A” to “Z” in April thing cause I thought it would be a great way to get around to being motivated to post on this blog. Well, one thing led to another and it is now the April 12 and I am finally all the way to “D”. Impressive? I wouldn’t say so.
I think one of my major problems is that I can at times be very easily distracted. Sometimes those distractions can come from important things like work, family and friends. And there has been plenty of that type of distraction since we recently passed the Easter holiday. I consider those to be good distractions though. Spending time with my family and friends is important to my overall happiness. Going to work and making money is an important part of being productive and living life.
There has also been a ton of the type of distraction that is not productive, but is totally fun at the time. The Food Network has been a huge problem. I get home from work and turn it on thinking I’ll just watch for a few minutes to unwind before writing and the next thing I know its about 2 am. The other major distraction I’ve been battling is manga/manhwa. I’ve got a friend who keeps recommending good ones that I can’t help but read in one or two days. To anyone who is remotely interested, read “Tower of God” and “The God of High School”. All I have to say is they’re both in color. So cool.
Anyway I’ll just get to the point. Since I’m obviously not going to make it through Blogging “A” to “Z” in April, my new goal will just be Blogging “A” to “Z” period. Who cares about the time frame if I am able to ultimately succeed in the goal, right?
6 April 2012 § 2 Comments
Tonight I bring you seven lovely countdown lists because, of course, “C” is for Countdown! Why seven you ask? Well that would be because ten is too many and seven is the number I came up with before running out of ideas. So without further ado:
Top Five Phones I Would Buy (If I Had Any Money to Spend)
- Samsung Galaxy Nexus
- LG Nitro
- Samsung Galaxy Note
- Samsung Galaxy SII Skyrocket
- HTC Rezound
Top Five Reality TV Type Shows I (Pretend Not To) Love
I am absolutely addicted to the Food Network, but this show is the worst of them all. Start watching one episode and the next thing you know its three hours later and you don’t know where the time has gone.
2. America’s Next Top Model
I really am not sure why I watch this show season after season. I really love seeing the photographs at the end. If they had a show where they just showed photographs I’m pretty sure I’d watch that instead.
3. Project Runway
In the same way that I like to watch people cook, I also like to watch people sew. It’s amazing to watch the things competitors on this program are able to create.
4. Jersey Shore
Such a freaking waste of life… so addictive. I can’t even explain it. Most definitely my most guilty pleasure.
What can I say? Watching people hurt themselves is always amusing. What’s that word? Schadenfreude.
Top Six Zombie Movies
- Død Snø
- Shaun of the Dead
- Dawn of the Dead (2004)
- 28 Days Later
- Resident Evil
Nine Most Adorable Animals I Would Like to Have as Pets (In Theory)
- Micro Piglet
- Sugar Glider (Flying Squirrel)
- Spider Monkey
My Six Absolute Favorite Foreign Films
- I’m a Cyborg and That’s Okay (Ssaibogeujiman Gwaenchanha)
- Let the Right One In (Låt den rätte komma in)
- The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (Män som hatar kvinnor)
- Pan’s Labrynth (El laberinto del fauno)
- Tokyo Godfathers (東京ゴッドファーザーズ)
- The Host (괴물)
Top Ten Places I Would Like to Visit Before I Die
- Anywhere in Egypt
- Lofoten, Norway
- Jukkasjärvi, Swedish Lapland
- Xi’an, China
- Great Barrier Reef, Australia
- Machu Picchu, Peru
- Krakow, Poland
- New Zealand
- All of the United Kingdom
- Iguazu Waterfalls, Argentina-Brazil Border
Top Nine Anime Worth Watching
- One Piece
- Fairy Tail
- Air Gear
- Soul Eater
- Fruits Basket
- Elfen Lied
3 April 2012 § 2 Comments
Alrighty folks, day two of Blogging “A” to “Z” in April has arrived. As such I am pleased to announce that “B” is for belief (and why I don’t have a religion anymore).
Once upon a time when I was much younger I was absolutely convinced that God did exist. I went to church every Sunday and participated in Sunday school, vacation bible school, youth group, church camp and eventually my church’s puppet ministry group. It was a great place to be and I made a lot of friends while I was there. All through elementary school and middle school I considered myself to be a Christian and happily so.
But as it turns out, things happen in life that change who you are and what you believe. Some things happened at my church that made me question God. Our youth minister “resigned” after his addiction to child pornography was discovered. Our church was vandalized because we had a gay choir director who we supported and loved. After the entire congregation stood behind him we found out he had been embezzling money from the church for quite some time. And finally, the couple who were in charge of the church’s puppet ministry program were driven out effectively ending the program and the only thing tying me to that place.
I really wanted to believe in God. But it was hard and I guess my belief just wasn’t strong enough. I couldn’t believe the things that people who called themselves Christians were doing at my church. The things going on didn’t seem like they fit into what good Christians portrayed themselves as being. I felt like it was hypocritical and like being there was almost toxic to me.
So I stopped going to church and my beliefs were firmly shaken. In high school I was absolutely sure that there was no God. I got angry when people brought up religion and it made me uncomfortable to walk into a church. I’m glad that I’ve moved past that phase now.
In college I decided to adopt a different viewpoint. I’m not religious, but I don’t disbelieve in God. At this point I like to think that I’m open to the possibility. Not only of a Christian God, but the possibility that there is some sort of higher power looking down on us and guiding our lives. Or not. Who knows?
7 February 2012 § Leave a comment
Its been such a long time since I’ve gotten around to posting anything on this blog. I started my new job and everything got really busy being that it is a job in sales and we’ve just gone through the holiday season. Here’s to hoping that you all had a wonderful holiday season regardless of how you celebrate. I hope also that things are going well for you in this new year.
I really liked the new job. It was stressful when I first started but what new job isn’t? You have to take the time to learn the ropes. I needed to learn sales techniques, learn products, and learn the tools we used to get everything done. It was fun learning. I got to take a trip for a week to Denver, CO and stay in a hotel while learning basic sales techniques. Then it was back to the store for a month of practical experience to learn products and systems before Black Friday hit. I was excited to go into work so that I could learn more about what was expected of me and learn more about how to do my job and do it well.
Being a shy person in sales is hard. I’ve spent a lot of time and effort coming out of my shell to be able to talk to customers confidently. Looking at where I was when I started and where I am now I feel like I’ve come really far. I enjoy the customer aspect of my job. Since mobile phones always take a long time to get activated and everything I get to spend anywhere from a half hour to a few hours talking to my customers. I build a bond and really enjoy getting to talk to so many different people. The sales aspect is still hard for me. I’m able to push harder than I was at first, but I still don’t want to force people to buy things that they don’t want or need.
Work is becoming more and more stressful of late because I can’t seem to make enough sales to keep my manager happy and when I do make sales they’re not as profitable as she’d like them to be. Instead of focusing on something I did well and then telling me what I can improve on all I get is “Oh, why didn’t you attach that?”. I feel proud of myself for making progress and then get ripped down for everything that I haven’t made enough progress on. I feel anxious even thinking about going to work tomorrow because I know that whatever I do won’t be good enough and when I see my manager next she’ll be asking why I didn’t sell this or that on a transaction.
I’d like to find a job that would be low stress for me but I don’t even know where to start. The idea of looking for a new job is stressful because I’ve got no idea what I should do. Anyone with any ideas of a good low stress job to look for openings in would be super appreciated if they’d share.
22 October 2011 § Leave a comment
Starting a new job is one of the scariest and most stressful things I can think of right now. A great majority of the reason behind this probably comes from the fact that I am in the process of switching jobs right now. I’m one of those people who likes plans and knowing what’s going to come. I don’t like change or the unknown. Yet somehow I’ve managed to get myself to a point in my life where I’ve got no plan and it has landed me smack dab in the middle of unfamiliar territory. I hate it. There’s a little part of me that wants to hide under the blankets until everything in my life is figured out and I once again have a great plan for the future. It’s impossible to do, but the thought is tempting… so very tempting.
I realize of course that change is necessary. Especially when working 40 hours a week at the local McDonald’s has been leading towards a long and harrowing road of depression and anxiety. I wanted to leave McDoh’s with a career type job. One with a salary and regular hours which would allow me to move out of my parent’s house again. But rather than that I managed to land a part time job selling cell phones at an electronics store despite the fact that I know next to nothing about mobile phones. You’d think it would have come up during the interviews (yes plural, there were three) but for some reason it did not. I suppose training exists for just that reason. I’m super excited for the new job and I think I’m going to really love it there, but I’m freaking out at the same time. Change is scary and I just don’t ever do well with the unknown.
I hope that this ends up being a good change. I suppose working someplace with higher pay where I’ll be treated like a human being is going to be a better place for me to stay while I continue looking for something to utilize my degree. Leaving my old job is hard because while I mostly hate it I’m going to miss some of the people I work with. But in the end working with some fantastic people just couldn’t overshadow the bad parts of the job. Now that I’ve had my say I am going to try with all my might to put all of my nervous energy into flourishing in this new position. Here’s to hoping that I catch on fast and get to a better place in my life!
11 October 2011 § 2 Comments
This November seems like its going to be an interesting one for sure. Some little part of my mind decided that this year is the year to do NaNoWriMo. The more sensible part of my mind resisted for a while. “It’s so much writing for someone who doesn’t write very often” I told myself. “You’ll never finish because you aren’t capable of writing creatively. Look at your blog, you can’t even keep up with that so how could you do NaNo? Your strength is in research writing and you should stick to that.” But the little part of my brain that thought it could has now taken over the larger more realistic portion of my poor brain and now I’m convinced that it’s a good idea… mostly.
For anyone who may be reading this who doesn’t know what NaNoWriMo is then let me stop for a moment and explain. NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. It’s a competition where writers try to complete a 50,000 or more word novel in November. That’s thirty days folks. Novels cannot be started prior to November 1st though plots can be planned and writers can make in depth outlines. NaNo isn’t a competition between writers, but rather a competition between the writer and themselves to see if they can make the deadline. Anyone can win as long as they write 50,000 words and validate them by November 30th.
I’m definitely not expecting to have a finished product by the end of November. In fact I’ll be completely thrilled if I can even make it to the 50,000 words period. If I write a novel that never gets published then that’s alright by me. I just want to see if I can do it. If I can make the cut I’d be so proud of myself. Should I not make the deadline then I will still be proud of myself for just stepping out of my comfort zone and giving it a shot.
Now that it is October though, I feel like I should do some planning to get ready for the insane month that is going to be November. I’ve brainstormed several plots all of which I really like. Yet every time I sit down to pick one and start outlining I just keep thinking of more. I’m holding out hope that one will stick eventually and I’ll be able to really get into it. There’s still a lot of time left so I’ll do my best not to panic… too much that is.
I’m interested in hearing other people’s stories about NaNoWriMo though. Has anyone reading this competed? Do you plan to compete this year? Perhaps this year is your first year as well. Maybe you have some advice for newbies like little old me. Feel free to share your stories good people of the internet. I’m always glad to read them.